Reclining in bed writing this. Returned from hospital yesterday following clearance of my left axillary nodes as a precaution because I did have cancer in that breast. Two types ductal and lobular. So now I have had bilateral mastectomy and axillary clearance right and left. Two operations in one month. Its good writing this blog because I get it all out and yet I still can't believe its me I am talking about. Other halfs just gone to get my prescription ..painkillers, laxitive and sleeping tablets! At least I will be sorted for the weekend. The drain should be able to come out tomorrow.
Met two lovely ladies in hospital this time. I couldn't believe Anita had a wig on she looked gorgeous and has inspired me. Still dreading the chemotherapy though and all it entails. She advised me to get a portocath not a picc line (must look them both up) My leg is hurting where they put the venflon and flucloxacillin just like it did in my arm the last time. I am worried about my veins seeing as my arms will be out of bounds now for blood tests.
My Mum and brother just visited they have cheered me up. They took the mickey and laughed which is what I needed. When people are nice it makes me want to cry and I don't want to cry. I really wish I could go to sleep and have someone wake me up when its all over though .....say next April!
