My mum passed away this afternoon. It was very peaceful in the end. She had wanted to be buried on the same day and wanted a simple ceremony.
I reflect on the last few months and I struggle to believe any of it. I can't imagine my life without my mum as a big part of it.
While we were burying her this evening, I kept thinking about what the Macmillan nurse said to me a few weeks ago when she told me that there was nothing they could do and that my mum was going to die. And I felt very angry. I felt angry that they would let my mum suffer for months on end and then let her die. I know that nothing is going to bring her back now, but I just felt that it was pathetic that nothing could be done in this day and age. If I have a medical problem, I expect it to be sorted out. I don't expect to be told 'nothing can be done'. This doesn't seem good enough to me at all.
I know that I'm emotional at the moment and that my thoughts are probably not logical. I hope that time will help our family come to terms with what has happened.
Sorry for the rant, but I just wanted to share.
