Today I went for my first bereavement counselling session. I left feeling that what has taken place was profound, for I felt as if I had opened up Pandora's Box with regards to my feelings. The depth at which I discussed my feelings really shook me and made me think. I hadn't previously thought about the complexity of the reasons why I feel the way I do. Obviously, there is grief. But I hadn't thought about the impact of my own powerlessness. I am a person who feels that they need to understand the reason behind everything and who need to feel that they are in control of what happens in their life. Maybe my Mum's death challenged both of these things.
I think this counselling will prove to be a good thing in the long-term though.
