Well on Wednesday afternoon I said goodbye to the love of my life,it was a beautiful day and the sun was shining but inside I was empty. After my first marriage ended I vowed I would never marry again as it had been the worst years of my life and I thought I would never feel safe with another man then along came Tom 18years older than me and life suddenly became worth living we had 21 years together 8 of them as man and…
Well tomorrow is the day I have been dreading since Tom was first diagnosed 20 mths ago,his funeral.I don't know how I am going to cope I miss him so much since he died nearly 2 weeks ago and I feel asif I am living in limbo.I feel so empty and alone and miss so much looking after him which sounds so selfish as I wouldn't wish him back for anything in the world as he suffered so badly in the last few weeks.I went to see…
Tom always said when he was first diagnosed with OC 19 mths ago that he wanted quality and not quantity of life, and up until today never showed any negative emotions.He looked so sad this morning and said he felt like crying with the way he felt and he thought that he was pulling me down as well with all I had to do for him,but like I told him he would do the same for me.He now looks so ill and spends large parts of…
Tom has had quite a good few weeks,pain control much better since having the MST tablets and managing to eat fairly well,then this morning he has found a large lump near his kidneys.I wanted to ring the out of hours doctors but he wouldn't let me he wants to wait to see his own doctor tomorrow,I have been beside myself with worry all day imaganing all sorts so I cannot wait for tomorrow to come to make that appointment…
My husband Tom ha been asked if he would like to take part in the Cancer Oesophagus GEFITINIB trial, has anyone heard about this? or is anyone taking part in it already we would appreciate any feedback anyone has.He has been given 2 weeks to think about it.
Thanks Marianne
