Just back from the local hospice with my husband. He has non-small cell lung cancer with spread to lymph nodes, bone and kidney. He goes to the Hospice for acupuncture to help with the pain. Things don't look to good really, problem is he is in denial. I'd like to get involved with the local carers group but he is adamant that I should not. Also, I feel the children need some professional input to help them come to terms with things but when I suggested this, he flew into a rage (one of many). He's so angry at everyone and everything. The hospice have suggested a kids group, but if he is so dead against it what do i do? I feel I am managing okay but the anger is hard to deal with. It is not my fault, but he wishes it was me. (He has said this). His cancer is progressing and he is obviously very scared, but I cannot seem to do anything to help him. Everything I say is wrong. I'm sure in the future, when I look back, I will wish I had done things differently, but at the moment I can't see the woods for the trees.
