Becky's Blog

  • I think the consultant has given up on my dad

    FormerMember
    FormerMember

    My dad went to the hospital last Thursday and the consultant was a prat!  He has said that dad is not having any scans and we wait for the cancer to spread.  Thanks for that.  He claims the scans are not necessary - yet it was the scans that identified it had spread in the first place- even saying that they were counter productive - how??  He said dad will know if he has symptoms but then contradicted himself  when I asked…

  • Am I a bad person for shouting at my dad?

    FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Is it wrong to shout at the person that you love most in the word when you know that they have a terminal illness and you keep being told to make the most of the time that you have with them?  My dad is so angry at the moment and is lashing out at everyone, mainly my mum and me.  I feel so sorry for her as she takes so much and he is so nasty.  The venom when he shouts is awful to watch and mum is really struggling with…

  • Positives and negatives

    FormerMember
    FormerMember

    It has been a while since I have been on the site and I wanted to add some positives to balance my negatives so that when I have a bad moment I can look back and see that there were plenty in this whole strange roller coaster ride that we are on.  Christmas was really good we had a fab time, it really made up for last year when we found out on the 16/12/08 that dads cancer had returned and was stage 4 terminal.  New year…

  • Relief

    FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Well dad went to the hospital and they made the decision for him and took him off the tablets, saved him from agonising over it though.  Although it sounds cruel I am relieved, even in the 2 weeks he has been off the drugs he has changed and is more the man that he was before.  I know it is selfish as he is worried that now nothing is fighting the disease and that must be very frightening.  I can only hope now that he can…

  • The right thing to do?

    FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Well we wait for Thursday to see if the cancer has spread and to see if my dad should stay on the tablets or not.  I think not but should I tell him that?  His health had deteriorated so much with the weight loss, sickness, hair loss and lack of energy but he is terrified of being off them.  He even rag the hospital on Thursday to see if he should carry on bless him.  Do I tell him what I think and give him an alternative…