So Mums lung cancer has grown a little bit more than her first x-ray in July. She's in respite because I was really starting to struggle- i was caring for her 24/7 and hardly had a break, lucky if i got an hour at a time. They put her on 30mg of MR oxycodone but that's made her very sleepy and confused. The palliative team have suggested a lower dose of oxycodon and another kid of pain relief that treats nerve pain, so hoping she gets to feel less pain soon. She's gone downhill so quickly and I am so sad that people are not around anymore, they've kind of just disappeared since her diagnosis in July.
Im continuously spiraling down a tunnel that seems full of loneliness and torment. I am in two mind about Mum, I don't want her in pain anymore, but that little boy inside me doesn't want his Mummy to leave.
