I'm finding things difficult, still. I have good and bad days and on top of those really bad days, sometimes. I have found an outlet in the gym and lifting weights again. I missed my session today and I'm sure that contributed to having a bad day.
I'm still at Mum's bungalow surrounded by memories and at night things overwhelm me so much more. It's always when it's quiet, isn't it? I start a new job on Monday, so hopefully things will be looking up for me :)
Nothing can replace my Mum, but I know she wouldn't want me to mope around for the rest of my life, she'd say 'you did enough of that as a teenager' to me if she were still here :)
I laid in bed last night replaying her las moments and hoping she was at peace and just replaying the last few days, really... I've been told it's the brains way of processing things... so I'm doing a lot of processing when I'm supposed to be going to sleep, which is very upsetting.
Anyway, enough for now, I'll be back soon :)
