So my husband has advanced kidney Cancer, not that i'm surprised !
I feel guilty for not paying him more attention and making him see the doctor earlier.
Why didnt I do something when His smell changed?
He had terrible night sweats?
He lost more wieght then I expected on his diet?
As he had regular appointments with GP for his mental health I expected these things to be discussed ....I feel terrible that I didn't acompany him and highlight these tell tale symptoms. ( Not that he would have let me).
I feel like I have let him down, Relationships are so complicated aren't they !
I feel bad now I wont have to divorce or murder him.......hes dying!. I'm glad we are still married and I can care for and support him. Seems I still have lots of love for him even though I'm not aloud to express it as I would like.
I feel guilty knowing I will manage after he's gone. I feel great sadness for our family loosing a Son, Brother, Uncle, Father and mostly loving if strange Granddad,
