THURSDAY , 14th JULY , 2016.
TODAY !!!!!!
It's finally here . Six weeks it's taken to get here . But why so quick ?
I got myself ready at stupid o'clock and S slept on .
I heard S wake and heard her getting sick , bile and wretching. I didn't interfere at this to let her have some dignity and privacy . A few sips of water for her , nothing at all for me. BIG R arrived with his chariot , a catch-up conversation and off we went .
We arrived in plenty of time......for me anyway . S , well she would have rather been in a shed right then . Goodbyes , handshakes , hugs & 'see you later' and in we went.
The nightmare and the adventure were merging into one .
More fecking admin and filling in forms , and another wait in an unfriendly room after S got into her hospital gown and DVT stockings...dark green.
S didn't feel like doning her " i can guess my temperature" routine which she had done quite well in the other hospital . This was conducted by a very severe looking nurse , who took more details , blood pressure reading ( 143 / 113............apparently high .go figure with all the nervousness of the fecking op and the illness ).........And then we were left alone again .
I HAVE TO ADD HERE THAT THE NURSE ALSO OFFERED S. A PREGNANCY TEST..........WHEN S. WAS THERE FOR A TOTAL HYSTERECTOMY.....AND AFTER S's PAPERWORK STATED THAT S HAS HAD TWO FAILED PREGNANCIES YEARS AGO AND AFTER COULD NOT BECOME PREGNANT . YEAH......REALLY UPSET US EVEN MORE .
A visit from the consultant's deputy , who was to assisit in the op , came to explain things and answer any questions . I felt very confident in him and the anesthetist ,who also answered questions . He said that the system for getting S under for the op was to take an hour . So the op was to be at 2pm .......lasting about 3 - 3 1/2 hrs . He said that S would be taken down to the op theatre at 1pm ......30 minutes time .
We were left alone again .in such an unfriendly and clinical room . We both broke down in to tears then more gallows humour and Nurse Whiplash ( the severe one ) entered the room ...with her was another wtf i don't know .but she was a fecking real jobsworth .
Now , with having the stress of the op and the illness and not knowing what stage the cancer was in , .these fecking two twats told S that she couldn't take her holdall in wth her , that there was nowhere to place it and she should leave it in the car . Now , S is very easy going ...unlike myself ....but even she piped up at this shite . She said that no one had told her the procedure as to who looks after personel belonging at the pre op meeting 2 weeks before . A woman without access to her hanbag is like Easter without chocolate eggs . Twat No. 2 kept saying it was hospital policy and we could not leave them in the High Dependency Unit either ( which was where S was going after the op ) . OH FECK OFF . She did say that we could leave them at the admissions lounge ( pmsl ....more of this lounge later ) . I refused and decide to keep them myself .
S was so fucked off at this news as it was something else not told to us .
Miss Whiplash made S walk along the corridor to the op theatre area instead of getting , or even offering ,a fecking wheelchair. And feck me !......I had to give my details again on another form . The NHS is systematically cutting down the Amazon rain forest for all this fecking paper .
And now..........with S sitting in a chair and me stading next to her..........Miss Whiplash stood over S.........as if to make sure that S wasn't going to make a run for it . Seriously , any closer and she would have been in S's lap !!!!! She gave us no last minute privacy at all .
A member of the surgical team came out ....more checks , more fecking paperwork .......to make sure that S was going to have a hystrectomy and not a sex-change to make her into a plumber from Barnsley called Dave.
My mobile number was taken and checked again so they could call me when the op was finished. ROTFLMFAO at this .
A last hug and kiss with S and me telling her not to leave me and we both went our separate ways .
I went to the oncology centre and just felt lost. I sent several rexts to her family and friends to tell them tnhat she was on her way to the op theatre .
Over the afternoon , whilst sitting in the Onc Centre , where friends and family waited to be called via their name or a McDonalds ' now serving ' ticket system , to go to their appoinments , i saw several bald women and women wearing bandanas........and this was what S had to look forward to , though , she has said that she'll probably go for a wig.
Now............advised by a friend , by text , to go and see what the state of play was after 3 hrs......I went along to admissions...who told me they couldn't tell me . I then was urged by text again , th go back and demand an answer . I did keep saying that they took my number to keep me informed as to the stae of play . S confirmed this earlier . I went back and feck me ......IT WAS CLOSED . ...!!!!!!!!!! SO MUCH FOR FECKING LEAVING S'S HOLDALL AND HANDBAG THERE .....!!
I now went to the theatre dept . ...who made more of an effort to answer me . I was told she was still in the op theatre .
I decided to wait on the corridor between the operating theatre and the High Dependency Unit to definetly see S come out ...since NO ONE from the hospital sent me a text as to the state of play , that she was in recvery or that she was being moved to the HDU.
Luckily , the operating consultant / surgeon came out onto the corridor.he had finished . He told me that the OVARIAN CANCER WAS STAGE 1c...............WHICH WAS BETTER THAN WE HAD ALL THOUGHT IT TO BE . HER APPENDIX WAS TAKEN OUT BUT THERE WAS NO BOWEL SECTIONING OR PERMANENT COLOSTOMY BAG . THE SURGERY WENT WELL . SHE WOULD STILL HAVE TO HAVE SIX CYCLES OF KIMO ( yes , I know ) ..... AND SHE WOULD LOSE HER HAIR . IT WOULD COMER BACK A DIFEERENT COLUR POSSIBLY OR EVEN CURLY !!
I shook his hand and thanked him . He told me that S was in Recovery and she would be out in an hour. I then met again the other surgeon who opearted . A quick chat and things were explained to me again . I thanked hm also and shook his hand too . SO MUCH FOR THE HOSPITAL PHONING ME TO TELL ME THAT WAS WAS OUT OF THEATRE , WAS IN RECOVERY , WAS BEING PLACED IN THE HIGH DEPENDENCY UNIT. I me to know this I had to wait in the corridor and luckily see the operating doctors .
S came out of recovery at 18.30 and had to be hooked up to all manners of cables and monitors , so I didn't see her for another hour . I had to wait in seating area then would be escorted to her bed ......after hand sanitizing and putting on a plastic apron.
She was groggy but awake. The pain was held back via an epidural. She had 3 cables going into her neck and various others all over her. It was now 19.30 hrs.........30 mins before visiting time was due to finish . I asked about staying overnight ; the nurse said , well , it was ok as long as i was quiet . After I saw how the unit was set up , there was no chance of privacy so I changed my mind . I stayed another couple of hours then went back to S's place . She wasn't in a fit state for anything. I spoke to the nusre who would be looking after S overnight and she kindly gave me the direct telephone number to the ward . I coul phone at any time of night and in the mornning to see that S had a comfy night . I had confidence in this nurse . I had had a massive headache all day and it was still with me . I made to few more calls to S's family and friends and left.
WHAT A FECKING DAY .
