Hi,
Sadly after a long break I am back to update my blog.
I had breast cancer - lumpectomy, radiotherapy, Tamoxifen. I finished the Tamoxifen 9 months ago. Prior to my treatment for cancer I'd had a Mirena coil for nearly 5 years. Having to have that removed upset me greatly at the time, more than the cancer news. It's because it stopped my periods - Hallelujah!! I'd suffered with really heavy periods most of my life. Anyway, going onto Tamoxifen had the great side effect for me of stopping my periods again. So at this point, with a little gap in between I'd not had periods for 10 years.
Speeding along to the present day, I'd finished 5 years of Tamoxifen 9 months ago. For the last 4 months I've had periods. Feeling like total crap - heavy and painful. I'd finally had enough and contacted my doctor for something to lessen the bleeding, which I'd had before. Of course this was a red flag to the doc (I'm 53) and so I have started a batch of tests. First was an examination - just delightful, but necessary I know. In fact I suppose in the current times I should be grateful that the doc called me in for a proper face to face appointment. Tomorrow I have to get blood tests - including CA125. Oh fab, I know exactly what doc is thinking. Years ago I had to have an ovary removed after being blue lighted to hospital 4 times and eventually getting a CT scan. The lump was thankfully benign but by now I'd been onto Doctor Google. Consequently I know what they are looking for. And, also courtesy of Doctor Google I know that my risk of womb cancer is higher having been on Tamoxifen, also due to obesity I have higher levels of Oestrogen and that is not good either. I've got an appointment for a trans-vaginal ultrasound and also a referral to a gynaecologist.
I've had my falling apart moment. Crying and hysterically telling my husband it's not fair and I don't want any of the tests. Of course I know I have to have them. But I find I'm bargaining with myself, with God, all of it. If I'm ok I'll go on the diet I should have gone on years ago. If it's cancer I'll go and dye my hair purple before I have to have chemo and lose it all. Has anyone else done this bargaining?
Anyway, I've rambled enough for now. I'll be updating when I've had more tests.
