so I havnt filled in the details of the surgery yet, I may or may not do a catch up ( memory is fading, bit like you forget the worst of giving birth - for me anyway.)
I am cancer free, it has been cut out and gone, according to surgeon.
today, I still have a dressing on my boob, the scar has not completely gone, there is a huge black scab? that needs to fall off, if it was a normal scab on my knee for instance i would have picked away at it, just as well as the dressing is still there.
I didnt realise how much it is upsetting me waiting and waiting for this to happen, although the size difference isnt much, I am due to go out to a party next weekend, I am getting so upset at what to wear, without an obvious dent in my chest line. , luckily i still have my long hair which i tied to the side which goes some way to covering up the difference.
my biggest annoyance is that underwear situation, bra is too tight /narrow round my side underarm , there is some swelling, a vest/ camisole dont have much support and is hot , and one of those bra-vest things also pulls at my underarm after a while, making it so uncomfy by the end of the day.and they are so ugly, so if it peeps out eukk.
I might have time this week to have a go at making a bra, whether i a/ have time and b / manage to make something wearable remains to be seen.
There are still many who are worse off than me, but my happy optimism is starting to wear now, the odd tear has set in. more of frustration than anything i think. i have move my 'deadline to Christmas' .........and there was I thinking it would all be done and dusted by now. i wish someone had said.
