I don't go to the doctor much and I'm the type who didn't want to know the details my cervical Cancer. I keep my eyes closed through 28 radiotherapy with the nice staffs radio distracted me. I also kept them shut during labor of my child. Doesn't mean that I am not brave enough but if I see it its more real .I went through 3 brackatherapy operations and I never thought I could do them but I had it in my head that after all the horrible comes the new life to enjoy and be healthy lifestyle yummy mummy but no I am sickness and pain and tired and crabit all the time. I hate my body and it is not fair to go through all this and you can't even enjoy your life. Late effects are horrible and I lay at night or day with my eye mask on and wish I was back in the cancel center for someone to tell me I'm OK and not just going to die after all I went through to live. #wanttobeasurvivor.xxxxx. xxxxxxxx
