"I think you should sit down"
It took me a moment to process what she had just said. I was shaking and my breathing had accelerated before she even began to explain.
It was 2nd February 2011. It had been a day like any other, nothing to write home about. I was still living at home so I'm not sure who I'd be writing to anyway to be honest, but I digress... I'd been round to a friends after work that evening. It was a Wednesday and to this day I've questioned my memories of the date, was it actually the 3rd? I usually went round to Leanne's on a Thursday. And again I digress, is this a subconscious avoidance of getting to the story, of bringing myself to reliving the day.
I'd only been home 10 minutes or so when my step mum came home. She came straight in to the living room to see me.
"I think you should sit down"
Had I not washed up? Had something broken? My dad had remarried on 8 June 2008. I was happy for him, I could see he was happy but my relationship with my step mum was far from ideal. It gets better I promise, but for this moment it's important you understand that we didn't really speak to each other much, dad was the go between. So why was she popping in to say hi?
"I think you should sit down"
Where's my dad? Why do I need to sit down? He was in a road accident a few months ago, no-one was hurt, just a collision of bumpers and shock, has it happened again? Is he in hospital? Has he been arrested? Where is my dad? Why do I need to sit down?
I didn't vocalise any of my thoughts, I'm probably jumping to some ridiculous extreme conclusions, he's probably just bringing some bags in from the car, calm down Victoria!
"Your dad's been rushed to hospital, he's got a brain tumour."
