I never thought a day of shopping could be so dreary. I know a funeral is to celebrate your life but I'm overwhelmed with the feeling that it's wrong. I've ordered some dresses in your favourite colour, I'm hoping you'd love me in them - just for a different reason than why I brought them.
I'm missing you so incredibly badly, you always accompanied me shopping and when walking around the shopping centre I felt trapped with my thoughts. I bought charms to go on my bracelet that represented you; your lucky number and a heart in your favourite colour. Hopefully little things like this help me move on but ensure I still keep a bit of you with me. The nights have been hard so far. I feel alone and the bed is too big for me. I'm so used to having you to talk with but I don't find myself so interesting.
Missing you forever my love,
Caitlin
