left alone

I have a son at home with cerebral palsy he is 21 I have just been up to get him ready to go to the day centre he attends then the day will drag on here on my own. I have a daughter who is getting married next year but cant even bring herself to mention it cos her father wont b there to walk her down the ailse. I know things have to go on but its heartbreaking. Looking out the window at a beautiful day outside but inside just feels so sad.

Tomorrow would b my partner Ger's birthday but instead of celebrating his birthday I will be visiting his grave. So sad it is 4 weeks today and I still wake thinking he is beside me until I look and see an empty space. His children although they are grown- up now will have there first fathers day without him. It was actually the first year he told them what he wanted for his birthday and fathers day and they were excited to get it now he wont be here to open them. The first birthday and fathers day without a very important special person.

Tomorrow would b my partner Ger's birthday but instead of celebrating his birthday I will be visiting his grave. So sad it is 4 weeks today and I still wake thinking he is beside me until I look and see an empty space. His children although they are grown- up now will have there first fathers day without him. It was actually the first year he told them what he wanted for his birthday and fathers day and they were excited to get it now he wont be here to open them. The first birthday and fathers day without a very important special person.

Sun shinning outside but inside my heart is breaking first time in 38 years I wont be spending my husbands birthday with him I know I referred to him previously as my partner but he was my husband I just didn't want him know it was him I was writting about if he saw my posts and figured out it was me through the information I gave.

Sun shinning outside but inside my heart is breaking first time in 38 years I wont be spending my husbands birthday with him I know I referred to him previously as my partner but he was my husband I just didn't want him know it was him I was writting about if he saw my posts and figured out it was me through the information I gave.