Five years on - I live a normal life. I’ve drawn strength from you - knowing you’d be proud of me and my decisions.
I got my home back - my home.
And in it are pictures of you and always will be.
I don’t live in agony every day anymore. But I know real love never dies and that I will carry you with me in my heart until I go. I always hope one day I will know what you know- what happens after this life. And that we will know it together.
I listen to Wings by Birdy the acoustic version, a song we shared connection with and expressed love and Chandelier (Sia piano version) that I would listen to over and over again when clinging to the idea that I did need to survive. Both songs can take me right back if i shut my eyes i’m there in a bitter sweet hell of love and fear with you next to me. I can feel you there for a moment.
I am proud of my strength - proud to have known you and proud of our love.
Until we meet again, love always xx
Karen xxxx
