Up and down is how I feel. Yesterday, I re-read the Eulogy I've written for her funeral next Monday and blubbed. I forced myself to do my first 'outing' on my own - just to a small exhibition. I felt predictably lonely but unpredictably jealous of all the couples. I played a board game with our two kids (20s) and their partners and we had a great time - laughing, whooping and hollering. Yesterday was the first…
