You've left me. Dear god how much pain, how much agony and how much sheer misery I saw you go through. Watching it all helplessly. Not even able to touch you because of the horrible lymphoma on your shoulder and its spreading out pangs of pain. Not able to comfort you, not able to hold you, not able to hug you. For all those months and months.
And then for you to leave me all of a sudden! I am distraught. I am left…
