I'll start by saying, I wasn't prepared for this. I chose not to have children young for a reason. I wanted Dad to walk me down the aisle but he's gone, death by stubbornness wasn't technically what killed him but his refusal to seek medical assistance didn't help. Now, at 21, I have become a parent to one brother and his gf though they are older than me and quite happily can do stuff to help they just wont, and my darling mother who frankly deserves the best that life has to offer. It hasn't been kind to her, she needs a break but instead she gets pancreatic cancer on top of all of her other problems. Its heartbreaking.
