I don't think I will have chemo. It doesn't work if you have 'squamous differentiation' so seems pointless, especially as the bladder is coming out. Surely it would weaken me before the op? I don't like the fact that the bag goes on your stomach. I was ok with the idea when I thought it would be on my leg. I guess I will need all new clothes to accommodate it. How will I afford it. And the bag looked smaller than the one I had on my leg. I could have a neobladder but it takes a long time before it works and I hate the idea of self-catheterising or being incontinent for months. I just don't know what would be best.
