It seems so sudden all at once. I think the shock has just hit me. I was thinking I'd have to have chemotherapy first. But no, straight to the operation. My pre-op is in five days. I suppose my op will be within a week of that. Serves me right for listening to other people, no matter how qualified, oncologist, radiologist, etc. who are not my doctors, particularly when my own research doesn't match with what they tell me. I have left that forum now. I have a much shorter time than I thought to get my head around the changes I will have to come to terms with. I keep crying. My life is about to change forever. I'm scared of the operation. I'm worried about money, will I be able to afford a taxi home from hospital? How am I going to pay for a new wardrobe. I wear jeans and trousers usually. I only have one dress. I didn't budget for my partner's busfares to and fro for visiting. I'm very angry with the wrong information I was argued into believing because it has rather mucked it all up for me.
