Already Fed up after 1st round of chemo

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Oh dear, know how you are feeling but keep going and try and be more positive- I know that's so easy to say, but it will help and if you had hardly any side effects the first time, hopefully you won't with the 2nd, I felt even better after 2nd session. As for pain when doing a 'big job' do you mean a no.2 if so speak to your specialist nurse or consultant- sounds like constipation- which they can prescribe something for. I have the runny nose too all part of side effects, have runny eyes too. Hope you can realise that sticking with the chemo is worth it in the long run, I've just had my 3rd RCHOP chemo session today of 8, good luck, sending positive thoughts to you x

To Mary1969

Thank you for your kind words.I try to keep my head up.Its really hard

I remember the Chemo journey well! Every cycle of chemo is different and everyone's shared experiences differ.  Remember, even though it's terrible physically and the overwhelming emotional roller coaster is so hard.  Try to keep the big picture in mind, you can get through it.

I found if I asked for help from the district nurses, they were great at just calling in and reassuring me.  My local hospice were an amazing support too, knowing there are people who really understand how horrible the whole thing is and encourage you through the treatment was so important.

That dark negativity is normal! how could it not be? you need to be able to feel and say how frightened you are.  I had breast cancer stage 2, had mastectomy last year, 6 months of chemo & 3 weeks of radio.  I didn't see how my body was going to get through the pain, now I can honestly say, it has taken something so horrible to make me a better version of myself. If you can get through chemo and face the inevitable, and learn to live with the uncertainty.  You can let go of the hurt and leave it all behind.  

Runny nose, swollen tongue, sore mouth, no taste, overwheming tiredness, constipation, nausea, no appetite, non stop crying, irritability, anger, brown ridged nails, depression, shock, severe joint and muscle pain, headaches, low self esteem due to hair loss were all the effects chemo had on me.

I hope you have the love and support you need to help you through this, it's good to talk, get in touch with your local hospice!!

Be brave and stay strong X