I was full of optimism after my 1st round of chemo.Almost no side effects and no hair loss.But I supposed to have my 2nd round next tuesday and I am feeling down again,now having constantly running nose and headache and pain when going to do a "big job".They checked my blood at A&E and said its ok.no infections.But my brain keeps working and thinking will it be worse?Do I want to suffer all the time?I even I am on Sick pay because I am to go to work so I dont catch infections.And keep thinking it will come back after few years anyway.My husband is very angry with me keep saying its destiny.But I am only 39 and wanted to have family.I even think to not to do the treatment.For me stage 3 is like a death sentence.Feeling really depressed
