Today feels distinctly better. I managed to talk to MP yesterday about the imminent surgery and generally and about what is almost certain to happen and how distressed I feel about it.
Catharsis! (The process of releasing, and thereby providing relief from, strong or repressed emotions). He was really supportive and let me know he loves me and will be there for me whatever happens.
+ A couple of people contacted me and I've joined a facebook group for people affected by melanoma. It's good to feel less alone. Even so, I think I will be calling the McMillan line to ask about post-op pain and how to manage a wound which is in such an awkward place. Remembering the stitches I had when my son was born I've also checked amazon and found a nicely cheap donut cushion which I'm sure will help the afterwards.
Think I already said here that I opted for the op to be done using local anaesthetic. I'm not changing my mind, just wondering if I'll be able to cope with 30-45 minutes of it and hoping the local won't wear off before it's all done.
