got the heeby geebies about visit to hospital tomorrow to see the oncologist, I ended up having a stupid argument with my hubby over nothing really, so got in the car (first time ive drove since surgery) and went to the beach, I sat in the car park, watching everyone come and go, get their ice-cream, walking along the sea front, felt really sorry for myself, I shouldn't, there are a lot of people a lot worse than me, so I got out of the car and had a walk along the sea front, cleared my head and thanked god for how lucky I am, I was just a bit cheesed off, didn't think my family understands how i really feel, and when the fone rings, they say.oh she's fine, no problem,.........they havn't got a clue, what it feels like....bloody cancer takes over you're mind never mind you're life....... i sound pathetic but got it off my chest now, so ignore me.
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The same is happening to me except my husband says to people she mentally wobbly, I think most people would be WOBBLY if they had been through what Id been through. But having said that and they dont know what its like, I dont want them too eighther! Its good to let off steam it has too come out, I have found myself on the beach loads of times . Take care and do what I do just take one day at a time. Ruth
hey u sound like us lot ....... letting stupid things stress u out!
me n my husband fell out over chips ! lol
obviously its not really the chips that was wrorrying us both
i also love to walk along the beach
the sea makes me feel invigorated
(i need to keep strong for my son)
i think your family do understand but in a different way!
im a mum - and im bloody scared about my baby(hey -hes a big baby now -31 - dont tell him i called him a baby - hes not -hes so strong and doing really well ..... i mean all my kids are my babies and always will be)
next time the fone rings
-answer them truthfully tell them exactly how you feel
maybe that will help?
im sending you a big cyber hug .... hope it helps a wee bit
Oh Vivienne, like the others have said. Been there, done it, got the T Shirt. I have the smae thing with my sister, but I don't think they mean to upset us they just don't know what to do. You go walk on the beach and eat ice cream as much as you want, we all feel down at times because its a long trek. Just take it one step at a time and don't expect too much of yourself.
I'm off to the oncologist tomorrow too. I understand completely...and you are not alone. Just because we are in 'remission' or 'look good' doesn';t mean everything is alright. I know it's not all fine and dandy for me, even though everyone seems to think so. ( I think cancer makes us become masters of disguise and deception...we might look good but actually feel like crap!!! )
anyway, all the best for tomorrow and let us know how you get on.
