Thanks to all the lovely people who took the time to reply to my first blog post. It helped me to realise that I had started grieving for dad (it's the second time I've had to deal with it, my blood dad died suddenly of a heart attack many years ago), but at least we can have some precious time together.
Dad was allowed home, it was the day of his birthday, which was quite difficult as he knows he is very unlikely to see another one. He is managing to eat quite well, which is encouraging (and means Mum also eats, as she's clloking for him). he has no pain at present, which is a real blessing, just very little breath. He even managed to make a joke about the stair-lift (which wasn't something he was mentally ready for, but realises he can't be at home without it).
They tried tarceva tablets earlier this year, but unfortuinately he had a very severe skin reaction after about 10 days and had to stop that treatment and have his second round of chemo. He has now got to the point where he can't have any more as he is too weak. We hope we can make his remaining time as happy as possible.
Love to all of you who are (or have been) in a similar position. X
