This is where it began,
I found a lump in my left breat at the beginning of February 22, not a small lump either, i described it to the nurse as around the size of a 50p. Not something you would think you could miss. Now i do check my girls but probably not as regualrly as i should, its one of those things at the back of your mind you think wont happen to you. I would sort of check and give then a look in the mirror from time to time, looking for visual changes, with a history of small cysts the girls can feel lumpy with hormonal changes from time to time. A few years ago i did the Moon Walk (do it, its amazing) and was planning on doing it again in Scotland, so maybe this prompted me to check a little more thoroughly, then this thing was there, quite deep but most definitely there! Now i told myself this was a complex cyst, (cluster of small cysts that may need draining) with i had been told and read about. But thankfully i did not do what i usually do and wait it out, i hate going to the Drs but i called and was seen by the nurse the next day and within 2 weeks i was seen at the breast clinic, after the initial examinaion by a consultant i was sent for a Mamogramme, Ultrsound scans, and then a needle biopsy, anxiety off the scale!
10 days later we were back at the breast clinic and the lump was confirmed as Triple Negative Breast Cancer. My Oncologist is talking curative with some heavy treatment, starting with 3x 3 weekly Chemo, more scans, 12x weekly Chemo then breast conserving lumpectomy if it responds to Chemo! So that’s where my hopes lay, and thats what we are focusing on. It’s going to be a tough year ahead. But this is where we are at and as an Army wife my mantra has been “deep breath, crack on” when times are tough. But this time, this is for myself, I’ve not been the best with looking after myself tbh, life has been for Steve and the girls. This has stopped me in my tracks, I’m questioning a lot of things, and the wrath of emotions that comes with it is scary, however I am concentrating on bringing a positive out of the negativity of this chapter, one day at a time.
