The waiting is nearly over

hey there,

i know what you mean about it taking over your whole life, everything suddenly changes and revolves around it. the worst bit i found was the waiting, waiting for results being the worst because you always imagine it to be alot worse than it usually turns out to be, i know its really hard but try to stay positive, once you find out what it is then at least you know what you are dealing with, they can do so much for you now, so many treatments and avenues to explore. i will kepp everything crossed for you. hope your news is ok.

sam

xx

Dont be sorry Sarah I think all of us in this position have every right to feel sorry for ourselves...guilt free! Make sure you have that cry too as it really helps. When I was first dx I used to hold all my feelings in through fear of seeming silly or upsetting others, I have sinced learned it does you no favours so let it ALL out.

Like you I feel that as soon as anything good happens something bad happens to spoil it! I say my life is bitter sweet. I was in an extemely violent relationship from the age of 16. I finally managed to get away from that evil human being and I met my lovely (now) husband Dan. We planned our wedding etc and it felt like all my dreams were coming true, then 10 weeks before the big day I was diagnosed.  Got through all that and it was tough but I was determined to get on so I went to college and qualified as a beauty therapist. Got my very first job and loved it, then I was diagnosed with secondaries. There have been other things along the way too but I dont want to bore you. I suppose I am telling you this as I want you to know I really understand how you feel and that you are not alone in your feelings. Lots of people feel the same way and it is normal, not fair but normal. I really hope things start to look up for you, and they will but just give it time.

Lots of love and hugs

Chrissi xx

Just read your blog sarah, dont apologise for nothing, you are human and this is the disease everyone dreads and talks about but when you re the one it has hit then other than fellow sufferers no one can start to understand how you feel.   I am 4 weeks post treatment and am worse than ever and to think up to diagnosis i was on top of the world, felt really well, now not only the physical side but the mental side is affected, im weepy at the moment, housebound and just think i could give up now, but you cant, but it feels like a never ending circle, thinking of you,

Love and Hugs

Jill

Hello Sarah - there isn't one of us on this site who hasnt been throguh a similar situation and feelings (whether patient or carer). It is the PITS .... I would heartily recomend you find someone to go with you to the hospital appointment - you need another person to write everything down for you and ask questions when your brian shuts down (which it might) - you see we all panic when we actually hear the words because it is a very surreal situation to be in. My thoughts weren't around operations or treatment - all I could think about was my kids who would look after them, what would I tell them etc and Nothing else went in. - And thats me an ex-nurse who should have been able to cope brilliantly - oops I guess I am human too.

One thing I can promise is that once you know what the situations is and what the plan is to treat you you regain some control and can begin to function and process stuff much better.

So rack your brains and see if you can find a friend to go with you or to look after your poorly child so your partner can attend with you. Best wishes my love and let us know how you get on, Jools xxx

Hi Sarah

I'm sorry you had confirmation of cancer, we all know exactly how you are feeling. Tomorrow you'll get your plan of action and I agree with the others, try and take somebody with you. There is just so much information coming your way and it's really hard to take it all on board. We'll all be here for you for when you want to have a rant and we'll be beside you for the journey. Wishing you lots of strength.

Angela x