Yesterday was the one day in my life i never thought that would happen- the day you are told you have a cancerous tumour- it's so true you never think that its ever going to be you. I have been having severe abnormal bleeding for a few weeks now and i took it to be down to the fact that i had the contaceptive implant placed just days before this bleeding started. I examined myself and i found what i would say is golf ball to tennis ball sized lump like you know when you blow a bubble and other bubbles form on top of it thats how it feltto me i was scared.
I have 4 children and a wonderful husband and i felt sick to the stomach how could this happen to me?? The hardested part of the whole day was needing to tell those ones closest to you just seeing them crumble brought tears to my eyes how can i be strong when i know i need to be strong for others. I am a sttrong person and i have been to hell and back over the years and came across so many hurdles this my largest so far and i am determined to find away. i need to i must!!
I see the specialist today to get all the tests done i am scared beyond belive. But i know today will juust be as hard physically and emotionally as yesterday and the next will be harder. I need to find my strength the one that will keep me going and i know one day it will come in the mean time it needs to sink in.
I have been up all night cant sleep reaserching on the internet all the different things that i can face getting my questions ready for today.I'll let you know how i get on when i return.Sarah x x x
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Sarah, The one thing I can say to you at this time is try and look after yourself as best you can, get some light exercise, get out in that late autumn sun if you can, eat fairly healthily. I know a lot of folk on here think that nutrition is mumbo jumbo rubbish but my mum had breast cancer and my husband has oesophageal cancer and though my mum did die from this disease (through a bloody stupid doctor actually), she did the very best she could to stay fit and eat properly and I really really believed it served her well and gave her years that she should not have had. Likewise, I never expected that my husband would ever be as well as he is now, 23 months after diagnosis, a massive op and lots of chemo and radio, again he looks after himself and before all the treatment started the only thing the consultant said he could do was ... get as fit as you get, get ready for the battle. Believe me the waiting is the worst part, once you know what you have to get through, you will for yourself, your kids and your hubby. xxxxxx
Thank you for all your kind words, i'm still waiting on the results of the biopsy, i spoke to Fran on Friday (my cancer care specialist) regarding my mri which is on wed 4th, and she said it will prob be monday when she calls. This weekend has been torchure but i am getting there, every senario has went through my mind from they may have got it wrong to the worst case ever, but i do believe that regardless of what it is, what stage it is at etc i will get through it as many have you have said. Thank you for your support.
I will let you know when i get my results through.
well i have still not heard anything yet had my mri today. All as well as could be. The waiting is getting easier been doing plenty to take my mind off things have decided the house needs a little freshen up so went looking for wallpaper etc.
hello sarah , just to say that im 4 weeks post op to remove a ten pound tumour from my chest, it was awful seeing my youngest son dissolve in front of me , and he;s 20,.i can only imagine whst it feels like for you. Listen hun , as youve said ,you have come through allsorts of trials , as i have , and we women and mums ,especially, are like tigers when it comes to staying around for our kids .
thanks to the skill of my surgeon , he removed al of the tumour, and i thank god everyday for the wonderful under appreciated work they do. waiting now for date of treatment. your young and strong , god bless ya,
