Yesterday was the one day in my life i never thought that would happen- the day you are told you have a cancerous tumour- it's so true you never think that its ever going to be you. I have been having severe abnormal bleeding for a few weeks now and i took it to be down to the fact that i had the contaceptive implant placed just days before this bleeding started. I examined myself and i found what i would say is golf ball to tennis ball sized lump like you know when you blow a bubble and other bubbles form on top of it thats how it feltto me i was scared.
I have 4 children and a wonderful husband and i felt sick to the stomach how could this happen to me?? The hardested part of the whole day was needing to tell those ones closest to you just seeing them crumble brought tears to my eyes how can i be strong when i know i need to be strong for others. I am a sttrong person and i have been to hell and back over the years and came across so many hurdles this my largest so far and i am determined to find away. i need to i must!!
I see the specialist today to get all the tests done i am scared beyond belive. But i know today will juust be as hard physically and emotionally as yesterday and the next will be harder. I need to find my strength the one that will keep me going and i know one day it will come in the mean time it needs to sink in.
I have been up all night cant sleep reaserching on the internet all the different things that i can face getting my questions ready for today.I'll let you know how i get on when i return.Sarah x x x
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Kezzer is right again, you WILL cope and you will find strength. If things get tough, log on here, we dont mind. WE are the best support group in the world and Macmillan the finest organisation. Use the site anytime of day or night.
One step at a time hun - once you know more about what is wrong and how they plan to apprach it with treatments etc you will feel a bit more in control - glad you are taking some questions with you - always a good idea. I hope today goes well and you have all your answers. We will be here to support you throughout the ext few weeks andmonhs no matter what :o) Sending love Jools xx
30th April last year was the day my husband was diagnosed. You and your husband will go through every emotion known to man. Our consultant dictated to his secretary everything he had told us and we went away to read it and let it all sink in. It doesn't not at the beginning. Make use of your Cancer Nurse Specialist if you are assigned one, ours as become our rock, especially for me. Make notes of what you want to ask and don't be afraid that the question my seem silly as I bet soemone as already asked it before.
One of the hardest things it for you and your husband to try and stay open and honest with each other, as you will try to shield each other from hurt and be afraid of what to say to one another.
All the best for today, we will be here to listen to the rants, to encourage through the hard days, to laugh at the funny days..... yes I know you probably think you'll never laugh again but the humour on this site is astounding. And to wrap you in cyber hugs.
This is a club no one wants to join but its more than a club its a family.
I was told on 5th Oct that I had breast cancer and thought I would never feel calm again, I was terrified, could see my funeral, looked at my kids and cried, looked at my husband and cried and thought I would never smile again. Those feelings do pass. This website has been a godsend for me, I have met some incredible people on here who I now consider to be friends (albeit cyber) and the support they have given me is unmeasureable. Due to these special people I have laughed and cried with them and they and me will all be here for you whenever you need us. Good luck with the results the waiting was the hardest part for me and I calmed down once I knew what it was and what was going to happen, you then feel a little bit more in control.
