Final moments with my Dad...

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Dad is going to 'go to his reserved  fishing peg' very soon. He will catch all the fish that got away....

I am going to miss him.

I am at home at the moment, the journey takes 45 min to get back to the hospital and if I were to get a call, I may not get there in time... I know this and in many ways I wonder if I did the right thing coming home... I have just done 36 hours at his bedside and needed to sleep... unfortunately even after a bath I am still wide awake and reading up about final moments and what to expect...

I am at home because I am planning to be there all night again... arriving about midnight.... so my mum and sister can go home for a sleep...

Dad will leave in the next hours and I promised him that I would make sure he wasnt alone when it happened....

I am hurting so much and I am so sad...

I know he will be happy fishing, just wish it was at his favourite pond and I could sit beside him....

Jules x

 

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  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Jules

    My heart goes out to you and your family at this very sad time, may his passing be peacefull with his family with him, you catch some sleep if possible and rest while you can, whille your dad prepares him self for his fishing trip .

    All my thoughts are with you

    Louise xxxxx

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Jules,

    Nothing I can say will take the pain away but I would just like to let you know you and your family are in my thoughts...

    Your darling Dad will be in your heart forever,

    Take care, love Ann xx

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Hi Jules,

    My thoughts are with you your Family and most of all your Dad. " Lets Hope there are some nice Carp and Perch in his lake "  Look after yourself.

    Take care and be safe Big Hugs Love Sarsfield.x

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Hi Jules,

    I wish you some comfort at this time.  Your dad will be off fish happy in the sun in no time.  Keep that thought with you .. xx

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Mum

    I very rarely say this to you but after stumbling across this blog searching for my own bit of solace at this time and thought i should tell you just how proud of you i am and what an amazing woman you are, i am proud to be your daughter. You say you get your steel grit from grandad (dad) and he made you who you are-well i must get mine from you, i dont always make the best decisions but if i mess up you are there, you make me tidy up my own mess while being there with the right words.

    Grandad is an amazing man and has been a surrogate dad to me over the years giving me that solid male influence through my life, he taught me to be who i am and made my children so happy in the time they had. if lewis grows up to be half the man he was ill be a proud mum.

    your strength amazes me with all you have to deal with at the moment and i want you to know that if you need anything ill be here-we may not be close but i do love you very much.

    gemma xx