Dad is going to 'go to his reserved fishing peg' very soon. He will catch all the fish that got away....
I am going to miss him.
I am at home at the moment, the journey takes 45 min to get back to the hospital and if I were to get a call, I may not get there in time... I know this and in many ways I wonder if I did the right thing coming home... I have just done 36 hours at his bedside and needed to sleep... unfortunately even after a bath I am still wide awake and reading up about final moments and what to expect...
I am at home because I am planning to be there all night again... arriving about midnight.... so my mum and sister can go home for a sleep...
Dad will leave in the next hours and I promised him that I would make sure he wasnt alone when it happened....
I am hurting so much and I am so sad...
I know he will be happy fishing, just wish it was at his favourite pond and I could sit beside him....
Jules x
