feeling quite down today, errol is doing good at the moment cause sinitib is coming out of his system so not as sleepy, ( he seems quite distant sometimes not sure what this is ) not heard about the trials yet still waiting, worried that he will be feeling good and then will try something that will make him so ill again.
have been to see my lovely dad today he is in a residential home he is 87, i havent been able to go as often because i am looking after errol, i cried all the way home , he is not well very tearful and down , i feel guilty because i cant be there for him.
my mum is also in a nursing home, i have two brothers who live in london one is very poorly with a heart condition and terminal,
so sorry to be full of gloom and doom but i am very scared i know that i am going to lose a lot sooner rather than later
