Well its been nearly nine weeks since i lost my wonderful husband errol,, it still seems like yesterday, my dad has been really poorly also so have been running backwards and forwards to be there for him at the same time.
Dad passed away on saturday , i had been with him all day holding his hand but he decided to go while i was on my way home,,, will miss him so much but i know he is now at peace and in a better place, he was so independent and when he needed caring for in a home we knew he was sad at how much his life had changed.
I cant believe that i have lost my husband and my dad so close, i always thought i would have errol to support me when dad died , but i have had to get on with it yet again,,
My life has changed completely i have to support myself now and i really don't know which way to turn,, i need a job i havent worked for so long as errol always looked after me,, i have two dogs who i adore and without them these last few weeks i know i would have not even got out of bed ,,, so now what do i do how can i support us all when i cant work full time and leave them alone all day,,,
Benefits !!! i really thought that they would give you time to grieve but oh no go to work now or no money.
So my plan is to make the funeral arrangements for my dad and lay him to rest on tuesday,,, then who knows
