Well today was my first day on my own since dad went, everyone gone to work,just me alone in the house,i might aswell been sitting on the moon,i know i could have phoned hubby or kids even just for a chat but didn't want to worry them,hubby was worried about leaving me as it was,and my two best mates who i know i could ring and they would come at the drop of a hat,but i knew this day had to come and i had to cope,thought i was doing so well maybe I'm not as strong as i thought i was only time will tell, think writing this is helping though, getting things "off my chest" so to speak, the thing is i'v always been the "tough" one in our family they all look to me as to say "what shall we do" so i'v got to be strong for them, help them through this and once their ok then i can look after me,i know they are worried about me so if i can stay strong for just a little longer and see them though this, ok think i'm starting to ramble now so best quit before i make a fool of myself .
Suzie Ann xxxxx
