I am not quite sure why I started blogging as I am not really sure I "get" the medium. As quite a private person everything in me, well almost everything resists putting anything out there in the public realm and surely a diary would do. I'm told a weblog is a diary too but it cannot be because the very thought of writing something that other people might read changes the way I write, my diaries get written and burned so as not to be read. In a diary everything comes out as a splurge and as chaos and there is generally mess all over the place. Somehow it is inside me and never gets out.
BUT there is a degree of anonymity in a blog and I think maybe it is my way of shouting when I need to, letting off steam, being heard by anyone out there who will listen and even if no one reads it I have got it said without being judged, patronised or even "encouraged" AND I get to hear myself, marshall my thoughts and even feel stuff I did not know I felt.
So for a reluctant blogger I am becoming a convert to what seems to be a safe space to explore and acknowledge things. Reading other peoples blogs has been sanity saving too SO here's a HUGE THANK YOU to all the others much braver than I and who have blogged away.
