feeling sorry for myself

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just feeling so down at the moment having a lot of problems with my arthirits in agony yet still running about doing everything just feel so tired no energy and started having dizzy spells so of to the docs i went - shes not happy ive not had bloods done since last june and my blood pressure was low so im having an mot!! think if i was a car id fail ! got ECG on friday bloods and xrays next tuesday then wait for results - should have gone weeks ago but just cant face docs at the moment feel so scared any new pain is the cancer back - ive lost half a stone in less than a week and just feel so drained not sleeping well even with sleeping pills just need to get my head sorted so stressed with wayne being ill.as well hopefully im ok and its stress i did get told off for not going docs sooner but i couldnt face it taking me all my time to force myself to do  the normal everyday stuff like shopping !! used to love shopping now i hate it soooo stressful :(  think ive lost my mojo and need the old me back ive took on my bosses at tribunals three times and won them all i never took any cr@p of anyone so bloody cancer and arthiritis can take a running jump im still here fighting and i will win x

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  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Hi Missy,

    Sorry you are so low at the mo, thought you could do with some tlc, hope tests go ok and all is ok. Am feeling rough myself have got a rotten cough and sore throat, but don't have pain like you. Like you think the worst and it is the big c, am sure it is'nt.

    Am sending you a hug and you go get your mojo back, and keep fighting, even though it is harder sometimes than others.

    At least winter is nearly over and the warmer weather is coming, well soon. And all the bulbs are coming up , love this time of year.

    You take care,

    Pam x

     

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    hi Pam

    thanks for your message it means a lot and i think i definately need some tlc think we all do xx

    sorry to hear youre not too well - hope youre feeling better soon sending big hugs back to you  xx

    just had a really bad few weeks -the other halfs not well and my mums been ill so think everything just got to me and i needed to let it out - its easier on here and hopefully ill look back on these blogs and see how far ive come x

    ive got something to look forward too though - im meeting my uncle and auntie for the first time in 3 weeks - my uncle was adopted as a baby and only traced my mum a few months ago so it was a big shock as she had never told us about him  but im really excited and concentrating on all the good things happening the bad stuff can take a backseat for a while xx

    take care of yourself and thanks again for your message xx

    love missy xxx