Hi i'm due to start chemo on mon and i'm really scared and worried about the unknown. i will have FEC also known as 5FU. i've read the leaflets i know the pros and cons but still feel like an angry selfish monster that wants to scream why me and shut myself away from the world and ignore everything please someone tell me this is normal and there is a light at the end of this tunnel because right now i'm struggling to see anything. sorry to be on such a downer. Many thanks stay positive lol now you know the names just a cover xxxxxxx
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There is a light at the end of the tunnel but it's easy to say that when your treatment is finished. I was diagnosed in May 2007 and had lumpectomy and lymph node removal - it had spread so I needed chemo. which started in June 2007 an continued until the week before Christmas 2007. It seems like for ever at the time but it DOES pass, honestly. You get so wrapped up in going to the hospital and losing sight of what is normal that you think it'll never end. You will get there - I and countless others have and I am sure that most , if not all, have felt exactly the same in wanting to scream and shout. As for being frightened, who isn't - fear of the unknown and all that. You'll get into a pattern with your chemo, believe it or not there are times in the cycle when you feel absolutely fine. With regard to sickness there are so many drugs to prevent nausea now there'll be one that suits you and works. Just take care of yourself and have some "me" time to relax and draw breath. I found there were times when I just needed some space to think things through, feel miserable, frightened, whatever and then I could rally round and be almost my old self. A very dear friend who's been through this sent me a card which said "Try to be strong, try to be positive, but above, all, remember it doesn't matter if you're not". Take care x
There is a light at the end of the tunnel but it's easy to say that when your treatment is finished. I was diagnosed in May 2007 and had lumpectomy and lymph node removal - it had spread so I needed chemo. which started in June 2007 an continued until the week before Christmas 2007. It seems like for ever at the time but it DOES pass, honestly. You get so wrapped up in going to the hospital and losing sight of what is normal that you think it'll never end. You will get there - I and countless others have and I am sure that most , if not all, have felt exactly the same in wanting to scream and shout. As for being frightened, who isn't - fear of the unknown and all that. You'll get into a pattern with your chemo, believe it or not there are times in the cycle when you feel absolutely fine. With regard to sickness there are so many drugs to prevent nausea now there'll be one that suits you and works. Just take care of yourself and have some "me" time to relax and draw breath. I found there were times when I just needed some space to think things through, feel miserable, frightened, whatever and then I could rally round and be almost my old self. A very dear friend who's been through this sent me a card which said "Try to be strong, try to be positive, but above, all, remember it doesn't matter if you're not". Take care x
There is a light at the end of the tunnel but it's easy to say that when your treatment is finished. I was diagnosed in May 2007 and had lumpectomy and lymph node removal - it had spread so I needed chemo. which started in June 2007 an continued until the week before Christmas 2007. It seems like for ever at the time but it DOES pass, honestly. You get so wrapped up in going to the hospital and losing sight of what is normal that you think it'll never end. You will get there - I and countless others have and I am sure that most , if not all, have felt exactly the same in wanting to scream and shout. As for being frightened, who isn't - fear of the unknown and all that. You'll get into a pattern with your chemo, believe it or not there are times in the cycle when you feel absolutely fine. With regard to sickness there are so many drugs to prevent nausea now there'll be one that suits you and works. Just take care of yourself and have some "me" time to relax and draw breath. I found there were times when I just needed some space to think things through, feel miserable, frightened, whatever and then I could rally round and be almost my old self. A very dear friend who's been through this sent me a card which said "Try to be strong, try to be positive, but above, all, remember it doesn't matter if you're not". Take care x
I know how you feel about chemotherapy I was absolutely horrified at the thought of all the needles, never mind the thought of any side effects. I'm now halfway through having had 4 cycles of epi and the first of 4 cycles of CMF. I have been very lucky in that I have had very few real side effects, a sore throat that lasts about a week each cycle and the odd days tiredness. You will quickly get used to what happens at each stage of the cycle, tiredness happens on days xxxx so those days become the lazy days where you pamper yourself. Mention any side effects when you next go for treatment and the doctors will prescribe drugs to combat them. I find the nurses are brilliant at making sure you have everything you need. Just try to remember and I know it can be difficult that you are having chemo to eradicate the bl****** cancer. And yes there are plenty of days where you will want to rant and rave, my language is becoming deplorable!!
