Hi i'm due to start chemo on mon and i'm really scared and worried about the unknown. i will have FEC also known as 5FU. i've read the leaflets i know the pros and cons but still feel like an angry selfish monster that wants to scream why me and shut myself away from the world and ignore everything please someone tell me this is normal and there is a light at the end of this tunnel because right now i'm struggling to see anything. sorry to be on such a downer. Many thanks stay positive lol now you know the names just a cover xxxxxxx
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Hi thank you for your kind words it is of great comfort. I went for my chemo chat on friday to prepare for chemo on monday after getting all stressed out as i now know everyone does its not just me going mad or being a drama queen you see i'm the first in my family ever to have cancer so although everyone helps and cares i do have days when i just wont to scream what do you know and rant on for hours as other than on the internet i haven't got anyone that i really know that really understands and if i'm honest i'm angry with myself because i don't know how to deal with it or how i really feel or what to do for the best i just know i won't my normal run of the mill life back. This is such a shit disease why do we have to go though it. Well any way i had a skin graft on the 2nd feb as previously i had a masectomy to my right breast with a back flap reconstruction and although the reconstruction was a sucess the skin on the lower part of my breast had not survived and had gone black and died hence the skin graft. The chemo nurse took one look at my donor site on my thigh and said she was not happy for me to start chemo as it would slow down the recovery of the donor sight and increase the risk of infection. After 5 hours at the hospital it was agreed my body needed time to recover so my chemo was postponed until the 3rd March so i have got another 2 weeks of waiting and stressing myself out although if i'm honest i do think it is for the best as i am still in alot of pain from the skin graft. Thanks for listening to me rant on again Take care Stay positive xxxxxxxx
hi lizg, i can sympathise with you as regards not being able to relte to friends and family about the way you really feel about this dreadful sentence, you have already been through so much, iam sure we all wish you a very much better outcome in the very near future, very good wishes, love sheels
Hi, Just read all of the above and your replies. All the replies are really helpful and give great advice. Anyway, have you had your first chemo on 3rd Marchand how is it going? I am a total scaredy wimp and find that I get really stressed before my chemo sessions (FEC). Have had two and due another in one week's time. I can't look at bloods being taken; or canulas, veins and everything being done during chemo treatments, so I just look away and find someone within looking distance and chat away to them! Helps me! All love and best to you, IreneM.
