After a reasonably positive day yesterday, today could not have started any worse. I decided to go for a drive in the car and bumped it getting out of the drive, the car was parked back up with a scuff mark from the wall down the rear passenger door so no real damage done - what an idiot! Mission Failed! Had a visit from the welfare team from work today, they seem very positive and have sorted out my new post this summer. i now need to engage with my current bosses to start thinking about leaving my current post and all the practicalities and things that will involve. i am not sure if i am ready for it just yet but i have time on my hands. too much time on my hands as going stir crazy at home all day looking at same four walls, just want to get better, get off medication and get back to work. earliest that will be is four weeks time, driving me mad...rest of family getting on with normal life now, i feel isolated and still dependent on them (as the car driving saga proved this morning)...i know there is light at the end of the tunnel, i just need to be patient in getting there and learn to walk before i can run/drive...
