An absolutely miserable night, with only three hours of broken sleep due to pain in throat, picking up some stronger medication later today which I hope will see me through weekend and until Tuesday when I can talk to my consultant. Ulceration getting worse making it sore to eat never mind the swallowing. Outside skin of neck still seems to be in good shape, slight reddening but now just waiting for that to become sore as well. Still managing to get scrambled egg down for breakfasts, and sauce laden meals (10 year old portions) for dinner. Ice cream taste sickly but is a treat. Also starting to get grumpy with those around me as so frustrated with how long this is/ and will last, for that I a truly sorry. I really hope I don't spoil Christmas for everyone by turning into Victor Meldrew! On the positive side, and I need to focus on the positives however small they may be, by 5 PM tonight I will be halfway through my radiotherapy treatment and I then after this weekend have one 5 day set of treatment, followed by two days off and 6 more days of consecutive treatments, a day off, then two more sessions, Christmas Day and Boxing Day off and then the FINALtwo sessions.
