As the weekend draws to a close I can now manage to get my nutrition in less that 6 hours through the pump/tube. This will mean I can get some sleep without it after midnight. Most of weekend has been spent either feeling sick, being asleep or being in pain swallowing. Morphine doesn't do much except dry my mouth more, cocodomal helps me sleep and with swallowing for a bit. Tried to force feed a milk shake down via mouth this afternoon - burning sensation of ulcers all around and under my tongue soon stopped that after two sips through a straw. Keep telling myself in 2 weeks the treatment will be over, but still worry about how much worse things will still get before I start my recovery in earnest. They said it would be a hard battle, they aren't wrong, but I am winning - a day at a time - its something I would not wish on the worst of my enemies and is something I am glad it is me going through rather than loved ones who would find it much tougher.
