Dad and Aunt have sorted out Grandma's funeral but it will take 2 weeks! Can't believe it will take that long but it's down to paperwork. I know now Grandma is in the funeral home. I can't go and see her, her soul is gone forever. I did write a rambling letter to her when I couldnt sleep on Monday night, maybe if I rewrite it I can ask for it to be put into her coffin. I should read it but my hand writing isnt too good.
I woke up this morning and felt fine, I was looking at photos of my Grandma and felt sick. I had to run to the bathroom and threw up. I felt fine afterwards. Dad, who felt this on Monday night into Tuesday, came to my side and said just be sick and let it all out. Bless him, he is the one who needs total love and cuddles. Afterwards, we both sat on the sofa and laughed.
Grief is strange......
