I'm feeling completely and utterly useless!!! Not been able to visit my aunt as choked with cold and can't risk passing on any bugs to her when her immune system is so low. Spoke to my uncle earlier and just broke down in tears when I heard how much she seems to have deteriorated. I'm meant to be the one supporting him and feel like I'm letting him down so much!! The last thing he needs to cope with is my wailing down the phone!! Gawd I just feel so inept!!! 38 years old and I'm handling this like a five year old who just wants to run away and hide and pretend none of it's happening. Pathetic!!!
