The Fear of Death

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Hi Folks,

Sorry about the subject but I think it is one of the things in life we all have to face. What I have written is my own experiences of death and the effect it had on me personally.

So it all started way back in 1946. I was 3 yrs old. My Gran died, and being Irish it was an open coffin. I remember my Father lifting me up to the coffin and laying me beside my Gran,He said to me now give your Gran a kiss and a cuddle before she goes to heaven. I remember everyone was praying and crying,and I thought to myself why is everyone so upset. Some detail stuck in my mind like the fact why was she so cold or what was she doing with two pennies in on each eye. But the one thing I didnt feel was fear. In fact I felt at ease, no Panic. I would have happily lay with Gran, but my Dad lifted me out of the coffin then I felt why did he do that.

Anyway jump forward 3 Months and I ended up in Hospital with Dyptheria. I was in an Isolation ward.  Years later I learned from my Mum I wasnt expected to last the night. The only thing I can remember over the next fortnight. I had died Three times. But the three times I was supposed to have died the only thing I can remember was, me trying to open my eyes. There was no panic or feeling of fear,no lights or looking down on myself in the bed it was all very Beautiful and peace full. Then I had a sharp intake of breath, and there I was back in the bed. With nurses and Drs all around me and my Mum and Dad standing looking through the ward window crying there eyes out.

I could go on as it happened a further Three times under different circumstances. I Have held my Dads Hand as he died from Cancer of the stomach. I watched as my Mum  died and then my eldest Brother and Sister and last year my younger Brother of a heart attack out in Saudia Arabia..

To finish off which could been a long story. Even when I was diagnosed with my Aggressive Cancer of the Larynx,Thyroid, and Oesophagus. I can honestly say, that not once did I fear  or still  fear the thought of Death.

The one thing in my life now, which gives me more satisfaction is being a Member of Macmillan Cancer Support Group. For giving me the opportunity to help and share my experiences. With my Friends.

Take care and be safe Big Hugs Love Sarsfield.xx

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  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Hi Jackie,

    I'm with you on the no fear front.... seen a few along the way and the same feeling.. peaceful....

    And soooo glad too that you are here to help us lot!

    Long may it last...

    Little Myxx

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    hi sarsfield

     a well written tale, is like an insight to one's soul ( don't know were i heard that but it stuck), strange how some people can adjust or accept the outcome of life, i faced situations during my life that i can claim as life threatening, seen loved ones taken from me and friends lost due to accidents at work.

     thank you for your insights and may your family and friends treasure them all.

     all the best borderjoe,

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Hi Jackie..... What about ye Mucker!

    Are you thinking about leaving us then?

    Listen to me,will ye!

    You are not going anywhere for a long time,so get used to it, right! lol!

    Any sign of that wee Grand-daughter of yours hi?

    J.C. us Derry women sure like to keep yous men waiting,lol!

    It's our 'Traditional Route' don't ye know Mucker,lol!

    She will be one lucky wee Princess having you for a Granda as you will have her neck broken eh!

    Even though you do not fear dying Jackie and I too thank you for sharing your experience with us but do ye know what my friend?

    Heaven has far too many Angels so ye aint going anywhere, Hi!

    Big hugs Mucker, God bless you and May the wind always be at your back..........  Alison. x

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    I dont wanna die yet, no time, too much to do, loads of people to annoy.

    A relaxing post mate, thanks for sharing.

    Bill

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    What a lovely blog from the heart Jackie.

    You ain't going anywhere yet mate, you're needed too much!

    Have a lovely weekend and hope the sun is shining in Ayrshire!

    Best wishes, Christine xx