Just to clear my head,
Got my appointment through for next tuesday to go over my treatment as it has been recommended that l have 4-6 weeks of radiotherapy which after thinking about fertility and having a baby l have now accepted that it is better to finish treatment and ensure that l am cancer free than worrying about the effects it will have on my fertility. Its pointless to refuse treatment to safeguard whats left of my fertility as my health is more important - and finally l have realised that - hurray!
The fertility clinic will therefore make an appointment for me and my partner once treatment has finished - and if l cant have children then l will have to accept it and move on, not going to lie as it will hit me hard but lve been going through this for a while and im still here so l know my feeling wont kill me.
Its taken me a while to start thinking more postive about life and start asking for support from my close friends and the nurses that are supporting me through this time in my life. This site has changed the way l look at things and generally my life.
My fella is taking me away for a week camping to have a break before radiotherapy starts again and then l have accepted to have abit of counselling to ensure my negativety doesnt creep back in.
We all have bad days but mine seemed to last longer, maybe l felt sorry for myself but life is worth living and not worrying about what could or could not be.
So on the whole still feeling postive and moving forward, it may sound strange but for the first in a while l feel alive.
Love to you all
xxxx
FormerMember
Hi Shelagh,
We are going to Dawlish Warren in Devon for about 5 days and l cant wait. l just hope the weather is as nice as it has been lately but even if it rains it will still be a laugh. lts just something good to focus on - im so excited , l feel like a big kid.
l wanted a blow up bed but my partner said no and bought me roll mates - all l could think about when he gave me mine was - How thin? Wheres the nearest B&B - LOL. l really cant see them making much difference to sleeping on the floor. He doesnt want me to take my duvet either as we have sleeping bags but im going try my best to take it as l want some comfort, He He
lt sounds like with all that bedding you are very cosy and warm which is a brill idea, May try my hardest to follow your example. My friend lives in France, as he works 10 months of the year on a campsite and has invited us over. But, with everything that has happened we havent made it there yet, but, we are planning to go eventually.Hope you had a great time.
How can a lady be expected to sleep on a skinny little mat? Tell him the story of the Princess and the Pea. You could also suggest, with suitable nudge nudge and wink wink that there won't be any rumpty pumpty if you have to sleep on a thin mat! No way. You need luxury to be amenable!
Enjoy it anyway. Sleep on top of him if the ground's too hard.
