Just to clear my head,
Got my appointment through for next tuesday to go over my treatment as it has been recommended that l have 4-6 weeks of radiotherapy which after thinking about fertility and having a baby l have now accepted that it is better to finish treatment and ensure that l am cancer free than worrying about the effects it will have on my fertility. Its pointless to refuse treatment to safeguard whats left of my fertility as my health is more important - and finally l have realised that - hurray!
The fertility clinic will therefore make an appointment for me and my partner once treatment has finished - and if l cant have children then l will have to accept it and move on, not going to lie as it will hit me hard but lve been going through this for a while and im still here so l know my feeling wont kill me.
Its taken me a while to start thinking more postive about life and start asking for support from my close friends and the nurses that are supporting me through this time in my life. This site has changed the way l look at things and generally my life.
My fella is taking me away for a week camping to have a break before radiotherapy starts again and then l have accepted to have abit of counselling to ensure my negativety doesnt creep back in.
We all have bad days but mine seemed to last longer, maybe l felt sorry for myself but life is worth living and not worrying about what could or could not be.
So on the whole still feeling postive and moving forward, it may sound strange but for the first in a while l feel alive.
Love to you all
xxxx
