Just to clear my head,
Got my appointment through for next tuesday to go over my treatment as it has been recommended that l have 4-6 weeks of radiotherapy which after thinking about fertility and having a baby l have now accepted that it is better to finish treatment and ensure that l am cancer free than worrying about the effects it will have on my fertility. Its pointless to refuse treatment to safeguard whats left of my fertility as my health is more important - and finally l have realised that - hurray!
The fertility clinic will therefore make an appointment for me and my partner once treatment has finished - and if l cant have children then l will have to accept it and move on, not going to lie as it will hit me hard but lve been going through this for a while and im still here so l know my feeling wont kill me.
Its taken me a while to start thinking more postive about life and start asking for support from my close friends and the nurses that are supporting me through this time in my life. This site has changed the way l look at things and generally my life.
My fella is taking me away for a week camping to have a break before radiotherapy starts again and then l have accepted to have abit of counselling to ensure my negativety doesnt creep back in.
We all have bad days but mine seemed to last longer, maybe l felt sorry for myself but life is worth living and not worrying about what could or could not be.
So on the whole still feeling postive and moving forward, it may sound strange but for the first in a while l feel alive.
Love to you all
xxxx
FormerMember
i think for everyone facing cancer the early days are amongst, the hardest, you seem to be getting your head around it and making choices,(that aren`t really choices). but your making them, we`re all here to help in anyway we can.
good luck with ( oooops i ment enjoy, lol) the camping, last time i went i felt like the princes and the pea, felt every little lump and bump ha ha ha, it`ll do you good to relax and enjoy yourself.
i hope this helps, but none of my treatment was as bad as i thought it would be, i think we hear all these horror stories (usually second or third hand), and its different for everyone even people with the same type. so go enjoy and good luck, liz xx
Seems like you've turned a corner and appreciate there's a hell of a lot to look forward to. Nobody can have everything they want in life - if only!
Enjoy the camping. We're just back from 4 weeks camping in France. Fantastic campsites (and quite cheap) but for some reason they don't go in for toilet seats! A good morning poo is just not the same without a seat, is it?
Thanks liz for your kind words and responding to my blog x
Yes it does feel like im moving forward, havent much of a choice but thats life l suppose - cant change anything, done it once so more aware of whats happening this time round so starting to feel abit more in control if you know what l mean.
Really looking forward to going camping but i really just want to take my bed with me but my fella refuses( how mean). I am dreading sleeping on the fall as l never sleep as its so hard - i always seem to get the patch with the most bumps in it - but l may sneak of to the car at night when he is asleep he he
Looking forward to some relaxation and a good laugh, a couple of my friends are coming aswell now so should be good. Going have a chill out time before radiotherapy takes place, just didnt think l would get it back at all or so soon, but hey got to deal with it.
lt really helps to talk (type) to others as you are all so inspiring to me especially on chat and you all make so much sense - it seems being on here helps me get things into perspective.
Thank you for your kind words and replying to my blog
Yes l finally feel l am turning the corner and getting myself back on the saddle so to speak. It is hard at times but now im finally asking for help and gaining needed support - so cant be bad thing.
So much has gone on but hey im still here and still working through each element trying to keep things into perspective - and that cant be bad, so slowly sorting my head out and gaining a bit of control in my life and in reality.
I cant wait to go camping it should be good fun, sounds like you had a great time - apart from the toilet seat - that has to be hard but very funny too - having images in my head he he
No need to suffer the lumps, dear girl, get yourself a really good blow-up bed. Mine's blissful, even more comfy than the bed at home. Blow-up bed, then an old cut-in-half duvet, then a thin duvet and then my proper duvet on top. And if it's cold, a blanket on top of that lot. And if I'm really freezing I get in with Kim.
