Well, 15 months nearly since we lost Dad now. Still miss him loads although Most of my memories of him are good ones and the few months that he was ill for are becoming distant. Everything reminds me of him, he had been an avid 'twitcher' or birdwatcher for over 50 years and of course, birds are everywhere. Once again, christmas is drawing near, a terrible time because we always spent it together and also at the beginning of December 3 days after my Mum he would have been celebrating his 80th birthday - its gonna be hard celebrating Mums but not his.
been feeling a bit concerned for my youngest son lately too, hes 8 and I think its hitting him the hardest out of my 3 boys. He's turned into an angry little chap and now and again he'll break down and say things like 'I wish grampy was here'. Course that then upsets me andwe both end up in tears. I dont quite know what to do about him.
Theres so many things I still want to ask Dad and talk to him about, he should still be here I really believe it was'nt his time. I miss him still so much
