i'm not sure how to describe it ,but i'm not feeling right!
mentally i'm shot to pieces because of losing my dad recently , money worries , house worries ...the list goes on anyway , apart from that physically i'm going downhill fast i'm not sure for what reason and hopefully for nothing sinister but i can help but think it was my gut insticnt that found the cancer in the first place. i jumped on the scales today ( not something i do too often , but every now and again) and i'd lost a stone and a half so that sort of set alarm bells off. it's like i'm on slow motion again, i will do the hoovering but only slowly and if i can sit down after. everythings a physical struggle . i walk the boys to school this morning 5 mins there 5mins back on the trip back i had to ask someone if they could hold me up as i felt my legs go!! this is not right a few months ago i was speeding round on the school run on a bike
i'm off the the gp tomorrow i trust her with me ...so we shall see
